Title: Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny
Author: Holly Madison
Original Publication Date: June 23, 2015
Genre(s): Nonfiction, Memoir

Goodreads Synopsis: The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key—from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef’s former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door. A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice’s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.

With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.

My Mini Review

After finishing Holly Madison’s memoir, I lost all respect for her. She is playing such a victim when all of her choices were made on her own. She wouldn’t be where she is now if she hadn’t made all of those decisions she claims to “regret.” She is constantly hypocritical and it’s obvious when she’s lying– which is a LOT. She would skip over so many details, all of her stories were so choppy. She was always wanting to make herself look like the good guy. In her eyes, never once did she make a mistake. And what was her problem with strippers? She bashes girls in the profession like 180 times throughout this memoir, for absolutely no reason… was it just because Kendra used to be one? Holly was completely bitter towards her co-star so, that would make sense, I guess.

Basically, this was Holly’s own personal “burn book” to shine the holy light on herself. Her, looking down on all the other girls and talking smack about them, does NOT make her any better. She’s the exact same as everyone else who went through that Playboy Mansion and it was tiring to read through how she thinks she’s completely different and so much smarter than everyone else. Blech.

Dates Read: February 22-March 04, 2019
My Rating: 1.5 out of 5 stars

My Favorite Quotes

“Sometimes you try so hard to fit in that you almost forget it’s all an act.”

“Plastic surgery was so commonplace for these women that liposuction sprung to mind as the obvious weight loss cure before, say, taking chocolate cake out of your breakfast routine.”

“This is an important note: a man has to already know what he wants. Don’t waste your time trying to change someone’s mind. It never works.”

12 thoughts on “My Mini Review + Favorite Quotes From… Down the Rabbit Hole by Holly Madison

  1. This seems like such a superficial book which is unfortunate. These celebrities have such a wide platform to really go below the surface and reflect……I’m planning to read the book Erika Jayne wrote and I’m hoping it’s more personal than some of these type autobiographies.

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    1. Yes, so superficial. I do not recommend it! I just looked up Erika Jayne because I hadn’t heard of her before. I’ve never watched too much of the Real Housewives series but her book sounds interesting!


  2. Oh wow I’m so intrigued by this! When I was reading the synopsis I was thinking wow this sounds interesting but your review was completely not what I expected! I love your honesty! And it’s so savage that you gave it a 1.5 out of 5 stars hahaha I love how honest you are Hunida! I don’t think I’ll be reading this book judging by your review but I am totally grateful for you sharing your thoughts! So interesting!

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    1. Hahaha I was really about to give it one star but then I realized I read the whole thing so I had to give it that extra .5 for keeping me reading, at least. 😛 I don’t recommend it though! Thanks for reading my thoughts! ❤


  3. She was my least favorite out of the 3 on the show. Doesn’t surprise me that she thinks herself all high and mighty. Do the other 2 have memoirs about their time with Heff in the mansion? I’m curious to compare what they have to say now….

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    1. Hahaha that’s hilarious that she was your least favorite. I didn’t really watch that much of the show but now I’m curious to! She acts like she was the best part of it. 😛

      Kendra has a book called Sliding into Home. It was written before this one so of course, Holly talks smack about it. Let me know if you read it! I probably will but in the far future, I’m a little sick of the Playboy Mansion right now lol.


  4. Omg I didn’t know she was from oregon and omg I have no idea why I’m so fixated on that hahaha
    Anyway, shame the book was bleh. I think I would have seen right through her in the first few pages, possibly even the sypnosis, it didn’t seem very sincere. Idk… when you put it all out there the way she did, though I’ve never read the book, you re just asking for attention lol. Your life is ultimately made of choices YOU make. Its not like she was a teenager lol.

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    1. Yeah she was born in Oregon but mostly raised in Alaska. 😛 I hate her lol. You would have totally seen through her as quickly as I did. It was so sad how badly she tried to make herself look better than everyone else! She acted like she was a victime, when, exactly, all of her choices were made on her own!!!! Ugh.

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