Title: Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny
Author: Holly Madison
Original Publication Date: June 23, 2015
Genre(s): Nonfiction, Memoir
Goodreads Synopsis: The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key—from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef’s former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door. A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice’s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.
But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.
In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.
With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.
My Mini Review
After finishing Holly Madison’s memoir, I lost all respect for her. She is playing such a victim when all of her choices were made on her own. She wouldn’t be where she is now if she hadn’t made all of those decisions she claims to “regret.” She is constantly hypocritical and it’s obvious when she’s lying– which is a LOT. She would skip over so many details, all of her stories were so choppy. She was always wanting to make herself look like the good guy. In her eyes, never once did she make a mistake. And what was her problem with strippers? She bashes girls in the profession like 180 times throughout this memoir, for absolutely no reason… was it just because Kendra used to be one? Holly was completely bitter towards her co-star so, that would make sense, I guess.
Basically, this was Holly’s own personal “burn book” to shine the holy light on herself. Her, looking down on all the other girls and talking smack about them, does NOT make her any better. She’s the exact same as everyone else who went through that Playboy Mansion and it was tiring to read through how she thinks she’s completely different and so much smarter than everyone else. Blech.
Dates Read: February 22-March 04, 2019
My Rating: 1.5 out of 5 stars
My Favorite Quotes
“Sometimes you try so hard to fit in that you almost forget it’s all an act.”
“Plastic surgery was so commonplace for these women that liposuction sprung to mind as the obvious weight loss cure before, say, taking chocolate cake out of your breakfast routine.”
“This is an important note: a man has to already know what he wants. Don’t waste your time trying to change someone’s mind. It never works.”