Title: Words on Bathroom Walls
Author: Julia Walton
Original Publication Date: July 04, 2017
Genre: Young Adult, Contemporary, Mental Health, Fiction
Adam has just been diagnosed with schizophrenia. He sees and hears people who aren’t there: Rebecca, a beautiful girl who understands him; the Mob Boss, who harasses him; and Jason, the naked guy who’s unfailingly polite. It should be easy to separate the real from the not real, but Adam can’t.
Still, there’s hope. As Adam starts fresh at a new school, he begins a drug trial that helps him ignore his visions. Suddenly everything seems possible, even love. When he meets Maya, a fiercely intelligent girl, he desperately wants to be the great guy that she thinks he is. But then the miracle drug begins to fail, and Adam will do anything to keep Maya from discovering his secret.
My Mini Review:
When I read the first few pages of this novel; I was nervous the writing would be a bit too juvenile for me. As I read on, I quickly realized how terribly wrong my initial assumptions were!
I truly loved the protagonist, Adam. While he is schizophrenic, he is still a reliable narrator. He has a great sense of humor and witty personality. It’s always clear to us what’s real and isn’t real. The abundance of characters was amazing, Julia Walton definitely has one creative mind.
Usually, I’m confused when there are too many characters but, all of them in this novel were so well-developed; I was able to remember them after they were mentioned only once. It was crazy how different they all were and I enjoyed getting to know them. I especially loved Rebecca; the sweetness and vulnerability of her spoke volumes.
The romance was entirely too sweet and the ending was perfect but, not in the pretty, easy, and predictable way that I actually prefer. I cried like a big baby, there were tears streaming down my face and I had to get up to grab a tissue before I could make it to the end. I honestly have never cried so hard over a book before. I was touched.
My Rating: 5 out 5
Dates Read: Aug. 28-Sept. 03, 2018
My Favorite Quotes:
“It’s impossible to swallow words after letting them out, so it’s better for me not to speak at all if I can help it.”
“I could tell she wanted to kiss me goodbye, but once, when I was eight, I got mad at her for doing that in front of people, and she’s restrained herself ever since. I wish I hadn’t done that.”
“It doesn’t matter where I go. It’s just a place to be.”
“When you love somebody, you try to be better.”
“For a split second, I saw her smile and the effect was stunning.”
“He was really kind, and it doesn’t matter how crazy you are if you’re a genuinely nice person. People will forgive you.”
“We see the world differently and make up our own rules. That’s what terrifies everyone.”
“A smiley face is an appropriate response to almost anything when you don’t know how else to reply.”
“Everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle, right? But what if they’re not? What if the biggest thing they have to worry about is homework and whether they get into a good college? Even if they’ve lost a family member or their parents are getting a divorce or they’re missing someone far away. That is not worse than having to take medication to be in control of your own mind. It’s just not.”
“It’s a very strange reality when you can’t trust yourself. There’s no foundation for anything.”
“Death, I understand. There are plenty of people willing to die to achieve ridiculous results. But I really don’t think any drug could justify the possibility of anal leakage. If anything ever drips out of my ass as a result of the treatment I’m receiving, the cure is clearly not worth it. Please kill me.”
“It was a sort of powerful feeling knowing that I could make her smile. Every time it lit up her face, she looked more beautiful than ever.”
“It is not generally my prerogative to bum anyone out. I don’t want them to feel like they have to carry my problems around as if they don’t already have shit of their own festering inside them. It isn’t fair. That’s why I always say “Fine” when my mom asks how I am.”
“It was like she knew her kid was being weird, but she would be more than happy to kick your ass if you brought it up.”
“I crave quiet. You have no idea how much time I spend trying to block out the noise in my head.”
“You lose your secrets when you let people get too close.”
“It’s hard to let someone find you in all the dark and twisty places inside, but eventually, you have to hope that they do, because that’s the beginning of everything.“
“Because it sucks to disappoint your parents. There’s nothing more gut-wrenching than looking into their eyes and seeing that you’re not what they expected.”
“I want to keep her far enough away so she won’t ever have to see me as I actually am.”
“The thing about being smart is that you don’t actually need to remind people you’re smart every five seconds. It makes people want to kill you.”
“Is it weird that I think part of me will never stop running?”
“It almost feels better to know that she likes something than to have her do something I like.”
“It is abundantly clear that we only care about sick people who are dying tragic, time-sensitive deaths.”
“I liked the way it felt to be chosen. Not just by anyone–by her.”
“Once words tumble out of your mouth, there’s no room for editing. It’s out there.”
“I know that there are no monsters under my bed. But that doesn’t mean I let my feet dangle over the edge.”
“Respect your elders. When shouldn’t it be…respect everyone?”
“But the thing I forget when I look into their sad, pathetic, cataract-filled eyes is that being old does not make you a good person. Old age is not, in itself, an admirable quality. Sometimes it just means you haven’t had the sense to let anything kill you.”
“It’s nice to hear ‘I love you’ from someone who doesn’t have to be here.”
“Being a parent means becoming what your children need most.”