I tried to write a journal entry every day in 2012 and 2016 starting on January 1st in attempts to accomplish the 365 day challenge. I quit writing them because they were both meant for my eyes only but other eyes somehow found them. I also had another private one where it was less organized, with no purpose. I just wrote about everything and anything…
This post is a compilation of small snippets from all three of those blogs. I have made no edits except that I bleeped out people’s names.
(I also had a Xanga but I don’t understand how to get all my entries with the new Xanga 2.0 shit. Boo.)
“J called me during school though. He made me HELLA mad cuz he kept calling & I was in class & i missed the notes & hw.. But he was soo sweet. I love him ❤
umm.. what else? Idk we went to albertsons after the study party & got pretzels & choclates so we’re gonna make that ! later.
tmrw we’re hanging out w/ ****** & smoking a 40 sack 😀 yes !!!!!!
i can’t waitt ! we’re about to smoke since the rents went to sleep also. we smoked after school but i didn’t quite get high.. whatever
i hope there’s enough to get high tonight though”
“Then me & k smoked out of our eggo syrup bong in the bathroom before my shower & I was so high last night from this bong. After that we watched music videos & such. Then we decided to go out to eat at the Rock Pizza restaurant & her mom & dad wanted to meet us there & pay & eat w/ us 🙂 so we walked there & smoked out of our moldy lime on the way there. we ordered wings & 2 pizzas. It was so good ! umm.. then we came home & watched the blindside.. & that was my whole day cuz the blindside just ended but here we are & there is no pot for us to smoke tonight. I’m hella tired right now though ! I’d go to bed if I could.. K wants to sneak out & go hang out w/ **** but idk if i want to do that hm. idk ttyl”
“Sometimes I have creepy fucking dreams where I wanna wake up so bad and I can’t. I hope I don’t have one of those if I end up taking a nap today.”
“He got me Ferrero rocher chocolates!!! Mmm& more candy & 2 nintendo ds games!!! I had a wonderful Valentine’s day. We were so exhausted though so we came home and passed out. But Alex came home yesterday and when we woke up we had sex 🙂 it was so good & he said happy Valentine’s baby…so sexy and wonderful. Then we layed down a lil and snuggled then he said he wanted to smoke weed. I was still naked so when he got up and took the blanket off of me he my ass was kind of in the air cause I was laying on the side. He kinda tapped his dick on my ass and he could tell my pussy was wet (cause he’s so sexy it just gets wet from lil things like that lol) then he slid his finger in and out my pussy a couple times and said “you didn’t tell me you were wet baby” & put his big dick in me again.”
“In a perfect world, everyone would get along and/or understand the fact that we all just dont.”
“Used to write to get shit to stop running thru my mind but doesn’t even help any more. It just won’t stop. Don’t know what’s real & what’s not. I’m just scared of everything & everyone & getting hurt. Like I wouldn’t even be able to handle it. ”
“It seems I have been cutting down on the drinking and getting drunk but it only seems this way because I’ve been drinking the same amount with less of an effect.”
“Last night I was extremely drunk and completely blacked out. For the first time I have to say I have absolutely no recollection of the night..”
“Good blow w/Alex”
“Woke up and wanted to chug grey goose..got out the shower and my head is shouting I WANT DRUGS!”
“I never thought that the men that lived out their wildest fantasies with me were creepy or weird..in fact they were my favorite shows. The men I thought were creepy were the men who wouldn’t even say hello when they walked in.”
“When he left, ****** showed me how to smoke “frosties” off a meth pipe and I can’t remember if I smoked some or if I passed. I’ve smoked them, just cant remember during which rendezvous”
There’s so much shit I wrote that I forgot about until I went digging to make this post, maybe I will do another post or two like this if you guys would like?