My very worst habit

I have a ton of bad habits I wish I didn’t have. It’s tough to decide which one I would wish away if I had the opportunity to.

I asked my boyfriend what he thought my worst habit was and he said: how I’m constantly spitting and I’d have to agree. I am disgusting. I know!

(Via Merriam Webster)

In the beginning of 2016, I had made a resolution to quit smoking cigarettes. It lasted until December so I was actually really close. But close doesn’t cut it.

Quitting cigarettes causes your phlegm to loosen up. When I quit my phlegm was loosening up and it would constantly come up in big brown and black lougies. It hasn’t stopped happening even though I started smoking again — I think it’s gotten worse. (???)

Think of me like a chronic tobacco chewer. Except I don’t chew. Never have. That’s how often I need to spit. I even have a bottle to spit in on my bedside table.

I feel like I can’t breathe in the morning because there’s so much phlegm backed up in my throat, I often choke and cough it up and while I’m smoking cigarettes my mouth gets watery and I don’t like to swallow that spit because it doesn’t taste very good.

Okay, okay…I’ll stop. I already know; I’m so gross. I don’t know if this super bad habit of mine is normal or something I could/should fix somehow but it’s definitely the one bad habit I have that I’d wish away if I could.

(Challenge #2 / Day #14)

24 thoughts on “My very worst habit

  1. I quit for a year and a half and during finals I was so stressed (and a little tipsy) one night that I had one and before I know it i’m right back to smoking again, it’s a big habit to quit because even after you quit for a while it still comes up in your mind every now and than.

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  2. Yuck. I didn’t know quitting caused that, but it’s probably a good thing in the long run. It means your body is going back to the way it should, so hopefully you can end up quitting for good. My mom smoked for over 40 years and she quit over a year ago. A problem she had after quitting was that nothing tasted good to her. It was because the cigarettes had affected her taste buds, but they were in the process of going back to normal so things were tasting different. Eventually everything started to taste good to her again.

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    1. Yeah I looked it it up and it says that my lungs are trying to clean itself out. I’m sure they are confused because I quit for a bit and started again and I smoke prob too many blunts for my own good so I’ve read that is a reason for it, too.

      Ah… yeah, that’s awesome your mom was able to quit! I’ve also heard that some people gain a lot of weight after quitting because their appetites grow without nicotine. But there are more benefits to quitting so I should get on that… πŸ™ˆ

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  3. I quit smoking five years ago this past April. I was a 4 pack a day heavy smoker. I can breathe so much better now, but I did do damage to my lungs. Quitting was the best decision I ever made, it even tops marrying my fabulous husband ❀️

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